Wedding pianist anyone?

Demo 1 - Chasing pavements by Adele

2011-07-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

Is that alright? I do not have any copies of the music sheet as i learn songs by listening to them.

Probably less movement of my head i guess :P

But probably not a good song for wedding so yea...

Enjoy :)

Wedding songs

2011-07-18T10:17:00.000+08:00

Wedding is the joyous moment of all in everyone who's getting married. Lots of preparation need to be done to make this a perfect event. And now, i'm here to bring you the perfect wedding songs that should be played in a wedding

This i promise you - Nsync
A moment like this - Kelly Clarkson
Because you loved me - Celine Dion
Endless love - Lionel Richie and Diana Ross
I do cherish you - 98 degrees
When you say nothing at all - Ronan Keating
How Deep is your love - Bee Gee
Have i Told you lately - Rod Stewart

Most of the songs above are erm, really good and probably quite common, BUT if you prefer something current, take a look at this list of songs:-

Marry me - Train
For the first time - The Script
Marry You - Bruno Mars
Just the way you are - Bruno Mars
Hero - Enrique
You're beautiful - James Blunt
You and Me - Lifehouse

And probably the usual, Wedding march! :)

Music Experience

2011-07-17T14:09:00.002+08:00

Just a little bit about my music experience:

Started playing piano since 4 years old
Had formal lessons but stopped after 12 years old
Able to play songs that are current and some oldies as well
Never participated in any national competitions but performed live on stage
Stayed in Klang valley and Seremban as well

Reintroduction

2011-07-17T13:49:00.002+08:00

Hi,

I'm Jian Ming, reintroducing myself to my own blog. If anyone needs a pianist for weddings, contact me right here. I'll be posting some demos soon.

Thats all for now :)

My piano - an original composed piano song - Tan

2011-04-15T18:02:00.000+08:00

2011-04-03T12:05:00.001+08:00

Carol, this is for you.

My piano

From a white key to a black key

From the treble to the bass,

From the times we use to share,

To the times we’re in despair

A melody in my memory,

Never ever fading, like history

From this song that I can hear

Knowing that you are always near

When I’m sad, I cried, and sing to my heart

You’ll be there and I never feel apart

As I run into acoustic,

My heart and mind is on the music

Chorus:

Carol, you are my piano

I pour my heart and soul

Even when the time is rough and cold

No matter how much we have to go through

Our feelings are always true

Love is me and you

As I wander even deeper, thinking I’m a dreamer,

To have a song like JustinB, to spread an epidemic fever,

Walking in the rain, cry and be in pain,

If I lost you babe, I’ll really go insane,

When the music stops, i just look at the floor,

Wishing that i could tell you more

When you walk away it hurts deep in the core,

My heart rains, i began to pour

When I’m sad, I cried, and sing to my heart

You’re not there and I just fall apart

As I run into acoustic,

Empty and nothing, that’s the music,

Chorus

I’m so happy when i’m with you,

You know I’ll be with you as long as i could,

Everything i do, is because i care for you,

No matter what, i’ll never stop loving you,

You are my piano, as i am this song (cont chorus)

Chorus

Without you, there will be no me....

Love you dear.

2011-02-26T21:03:00.003+08:00

Self-confidence gives you the freedom to make mistakes and cope with failure without feeling that your world has come to an end or that you are a worthless person

I'm not going to disappoint myself, my parents, the girlfriend, my bros and anyone else anymore. As long as i'm still breathing, i'm going to take control of my life. Love you all.

PS: love you carol

Going Crazy

2010-11-16T07:48:00.005+08:00

Life is great :) minus the exams of course :P Just went through Long case for obstetrics posting and theory papers for obs and paeds. And yea...holidays for 2 days :) Weekends. And now, i'm psyched up for psych :)

it has been 3 months since the very first time we hang out :)

Of all the little things that makes us happy :)

Of how you are OIAM

We share the same passion

Origami :)

My days are so much brighter because of you :)

One In A Million

2010-11-07T09:59:00.000+08:00

I'm currently listening to this song. A cover would be nice :)

PS: By the way, you are one in a million, girl.

A new beginning

2010-11-06T20:14:00.002+08:00

Haven't been blogging for a long time.

After reading some of my previous posts, i realize how naive and childish i was in the past.

Honestly, my life is great. Sometimes i just didn't know how lucky i am. How others have to suffer in the real world when mine is so secured in a safe environment. I need to treasure the important things in life like my family, my friends, my OIAM and everything else.

I'm truly blessed.

Currently in my Obstetrics posting. I really enjoyed this posting. Hoping that this time i can prove to myself that i deserved to be in this line, this field.

Its 8.20pm and i'm hungry. Got to grab some junk for survival.

I'll be updating soon. Cheers

ni men hao.

2010-10-21T02:04:00.001+08:00

Hello everyone :)

I'm still alive and well. If you must, kicking as well.

2010-02-01T23:31:00.001+08:00

Julian Thomas - Call You

2010-01-15T15:10:00.001+08:00

Straight No Chaser - 12 Days (original from 1998)

2009-12-22T15:00:00.001+08:00

Friends

2009-12-12T10:41:00.001+08:00

David Archuleta - Fighting for you lyrics

2009-11-30T09:50:00.001+08:00

Update

2009-11-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

2009-11-03T07:30:00.001+08:00

Here Without You Three Doors Down Piano and Vocal cover

2009-10-24T12:19:00.001+08:00

2009-10-03T11:14:00.001+08:00

Thanks

2009-09-26T12:53:00.004+08:00

Thanks for all your wishes, i really appreciate them :)

zen, kai aun, keng zhi yi, C.woon wee, han eyong, yiau hoong, kelvin, jian ren, teddy, adam, david, george, chun yen, jun hua, teik yew, patricia, han sheng, chyna, juwen, pei yeen, mom and dad, uncle and aunt, joan, why kit, phor xiang, cheah siang, ida ang, laifu, sook may, shin ying, ernest tee, yenxi, chsitine poo, yean joo, kee qian, N.woon wee, gladys, weh loong, eelaine, litt yee, yingc, jeanzz koo, chay siang, see wei, han zhong, jun xiong, yue ming, chin seng, ming yang, win hong and seng long.

thanks again :) u guys really made my day :)

2009-09-24T09:46:00.000+08:00

“We can only appreciate the miracle of the sunrise only if we have waited in the darkness”

Dr. House sings his song "Mystery"

2009-09-06T13:32:00.001+08:00

Charice performs "Note to God"

2009-09-05T16:57:00.001+08:00

2009-09-04T18:19:00.001+08:00

2009-08-19T08:59:00.001+08:00

Nick Vujicic

2009-08-13T11:42:00.001+08:00

2009-08-05T22:59:00.001+08:00

I make mistakes...

I am out of control, and sometimes hard to handle

But if you can't handle me at my worst...

You don't deserve me at my best

A Nice video

2009-07-24T16:29:00.001+08:00

The Climb by Miley Cyrus (Piano Vocal Cover)

2009-07-21T10:38:00.001+08:00

"The Climb" ft. Ahmir

2009-07-16T21:51:00.004+08:00

Pls watch this video.

2009-07-12T01:40:00.002+08:00

I felt like someone slapped me really hard on my face. It's so painful, it hurts mentally. I don't know why i tried so hard to change myself so that other people will appreciate. I was wrong. I'm so sad to find out that people dont appreciate. My existence is there physically in a form of numbers instead of a person. And i tried so hard to be a good friend, yet things still happen. People whom i thought i'm close with are actually not. I am only needed when i'm useful. When i'm suffering in pain, i felt alone in the dark. People tend to appreciate others who are fun, outgoing and funny rather than me. I felt stupid trying to think how i should change myself, so that i'll be appreciated. But i'm only losing myself and lose many other things in life.

I really don't know if it's my personality which is changing, other peoples' personalities are changing, or i never really knew them until now.

So, Thank you so much for teaching me that life is not a bed of roses. Happy people click along, sad people walk alone. If u are sad, u are not fun, therefore it's not fun if u are there.

THANK YOU for the lesson u guys have thought me.

And because of this, i've learnt not to trust anyone anymore.

2009-06-22T17:44:00.000+08:00

~Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the spaces between the notes and curl my back to loneliness~

2009-06-18T23:19:00.001+08:00

Reflection

2009-06-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

I should learn to appreciate things in life, rather than to keep questioning what i'm lacking of. I should be thankful, instead of questioning why things are never easy for me anymore. I should appreciate the people around me, rather than feeling annoyed and questioning why why and why. I should care for others, rather than just scolding and hurting them. I'm truly bless with family and friends who truly care, yet i selfishly ignores, angered and hurt thier feelings

Praying and hoping, things are never too late for me.

2009-06-05T00:15:00.001+08:00

It's not those who are there when you need them, it's those who has been there the entire time.

MPO

2009-05-31T11:11:00.010+08:00

30 May Sat 8.30pm

Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra
Claus Peter Flor (conductor)
Steven Osborne (piano)
HAYDN Symphony No.94 in G – “The Surprise”

MOZART Piano Concerto No.27 in B flat (K595)
HAYDN Symphony No.96 in D – “The Miracle”

The ticket -> RM10 (thanks to Shin Ying for booking and Darren for driving)

Yesterday, we went to KLCC. Ate at DOME, my dinner is about RM35 (One pasta + one ice coffee). After that we walked

around KLCC until 8pm. Then we entered the MPO hall. Too bad we can't take photos in the hall. 3 classical orchestra music. What kept me awake is the 2nd song, where the pianist,

Steven Osborne deliver a GOD-like Piano performance, playing with his fingers. His fingers are like the octopus tentacles la. >.<>

Everyone in DOME except Darren(the photographer), Zen and his

sister who's not in the picture. From the Left -> Charlie, ShinYing, Teddy, KaiAun, YiauHoong, Me, David, Jene, Christine, WehLoong

Weh Loong and Charlie.

Shin Ying and Darren.

All the leng luis -> Jene (David's gf) , Shin Ying and Christine

Teddy, Kai Aun(Wolverine) , Yiau Hoong (Daredevil) , Me (Human Torch) , David (Mr. Fantastic)

My RM35 meal

The missing 2 were Darren and Zen. Darren is in the blue batik, like Datuk D :P and Zen is at the far right corner in a knock out suit :) Eh Zen, where's ur sis?

: )

This is what the MPO hall looks like.

The Conductor (not yesterday's event)

The Pianist (not yesterday's event)

Nice show, nice ppl around, nice post exams sydrome (PES)

~You must have the score in your head, not your head in the score~

Pictures are all courtesy from Darren's facebook and taken from friend's blogs :)

2009-05-27T11:57:00.002+08:00

Greetings people,

This message is specifically for IMU M207 students. As the road gets tougher, we strive harder. Stop whining and regret instead lets put more effort in this journey as there's a greener road after walking for another 2 more days. No matter how little or how screwed up we are, always remember what Adam SAndler and Rob Scenider said, " YOU CAN DO IT!!!"

:P

2009-05-23T00:53:00.003+08:00

Can you really forgive someone who used to be close to you who talks behind your back?

I find it hard to do so.

Write?

2009-05-14T11:40:00.006+08:00

Do you ever wonder what would happen if you took the road less taken. The road to the greener side of life? The road where there's real passion for something we believe in. I thought, what if i took the other road? Then i realise, no matter how good someone is, there'll always be someone who is better. It could be more challenging and unexpected, compare to the road that i'm taking now. It changes really fast with time. you need friends whose friends are the people who's currently in that line. you have to weigh other factors like the looks, how good you are, how could something captivates so many hearts until it remains in thier head for a long time.

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It has been a while. Even with recent events, there's no inspiration. There's no drive for me to write. Is that the end? Am i really losing it, forever? Work is accumulating, more time is spent on work work and work. Will i ever write again? I don't want to lose this other half of me, which is the only thing i'm capable of doing. Could be a punishment from God, for misusing it for money, fame and glory.

As i shed a tear, trying so hard to write again. But i couldn't. How am i goin to let it out if i can't write. How am i going to let it go if it's stuck here, in my mind. I need to...this is the only way i can let my feelings out, yet it has failed me. How can i let it out, without feeling the same pain again everyday.

If a man could say what he had to say in words he would not bother trying to say it in music. ~Gustav Mahler

Life

2009-05-06T22:21:00.002+08:00

Things can be so unpredictable at times. As i am blogging here, i'm unsure of what others are doing at this time. Some could be struggling in life, some face problems that could affect him physically and mentally, and some could be so ignorant yet arrogant at the same time taking and causing others so much problem yet not knowing thier limits. Life is just unpredictable. Unfair? Unjustice? i'm not sure. But that's life. It's a simple word yet we can't define it.

~ My fingers sing for you today, but you are not there to listen ~

Exam Blues

2009-05-03T18:37:00.002+08:00

1st week of renal is here. And i have to revise on endocrine and reproduction system. 1 month left before the showdown. >.<

My name can describe so much about me

2009-04-28T13:28:00.004+08:00

I got this from Noble Ang's blog. :P (corrected d)

You entered: Tan Jian Ming

There are 11 letters in your name.
Those 11 letters total to 49
There are 4 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.
The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 2
A Soul Urge number of 2 means: With the Soul Urge number 2, your motivation is centered on friendships, partnerships, and companionship. You want to work with others as a part of a cooperative team. Leadership is not important to you, but making a contribution to the team effort is. You are willing to work hard to achieve a harmonious environment with sensitive, genial people.

In a positive sense, the 2 Soul Urge is sympathetic, extremely concerned and devoted. The nature tends to be very sensitive to others, always tactful and diplomatic. This element in your nature indicates that you are rather emotional. You are persuasive, but in a very quiet way, never forceful. You are the type that makes really close friendships because you are so affectionate and loving.

If this number is over-emphasized in your makeup, you may be over-sensitive, with a delicate ego that is too easily hurt. You may be timid or fearful, too easygoing for your own good.

Your Inner Dream number is: 11
An Inner Dream number of 11 means: You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.

Anyway, i find this quite true and it talks a lot on my character. Try it here

~ 4 is not sei (die), 4 is who i am, I'm proud to be 4 ~

Hokkien

2009-04-28T12:59:00.002+08:00

Haihz, limpeh chin sien. Balu chi ge le pai eh holidays. na chu pien gong kia liau la. tak tak kang kua astro, peow facebook, ka lang chatting, bo tak chek. Lim peh ai summative liau ko ah bui tak chek, eh sai ke si liau la. Na chu kua piak, chin sien le chi ge lang na chu. Ko bo chia, be sai ke wag wag. Na si lim peh u lui, wa ai ke chiak hong la, wa ai ki Australia chi ge le pai. Eh sai ke kua kuai lo, kuai scenery, eh sai ke peow peow. Tiang Be hiau tak hokkien eh, haha too bad la.

~lim peh ka le kong, mai kau pe kau bu~

Tennis

2009-04-23T10:20:00.005+08:00

~I have always considered tennis as a combat in an arena between two gladiators who have their racquets and their courage as their weapons. ~Yannick Noah

~It's one-on-one out there, man. There ain't no hiding. I can't pass the ball. ~Pete Sampras

Yesterday was my first time playing tennis. Got to thank Kai Aun for inviting me. After lectures, 4 of us (Kai Aun, David, me and Zen) went to the indoor tennis court in Jalan Duta. Zen drove us there. It's quite near, about 30 minutes (considering the fact that we didn't really know the way there). We played from 6.30-8.30pm.

When we reach the indoor court, there are 3 tennis courts. 2 were already occupied. After some stretchings and warm up, Kai Aun gave us some pointers on how to play tennis. Gripping techniques and bending of the knees to increase the force and the flow of the ball. It's quite hard for 3 of us to play as we are still noobs. My 1st serve made the ball fly to the next court. I think i'm playing baseball instead of tennis la :P (HOMERUN!!!)

~Why has slamming a ball with a racquet become so obsessive a pleasure for so many of us? It seems clear to me that a primary attraction of the sport is the opportunity it gives to release aggression physically without being arrested for felonious assault. ~Nat Hentoff

It's a really fun and also a tiring game. The forehand swings kinda remind me of squash. I guess it could be the same technique used in tennis. HAHA, Kai Aun is right, it's very very different from badminton. :) Zen, thanks for driving us there and Kai Aun, thanks for booking the court and teaching us how to play :) It was fun :)

~Tennis is an addiction that once it has truly hooked a man will not let him go. ~Russell Lynes

The Battle of the Ball

2009-04-20T09:58:00.003+08:00

For those who follow this reality drama, "The Battle of the Ball", which is a movie about 2 guys coming from both ends of the world fighting for something in life, Something worth so much more than their own dignity. A dramatic battle for the fertile land. The historical battle between 2 men comes down to this.

The results :

I lost. You've won fair and square. I'll leave. The land is yours. But this war is not over. I'm coming with more armies to take that land back.

YOU'VE WON THE BATTLE BUT NOT THE WAR.

I'LL BE BACK....

Baby

2009-04-15T21:04:00.007+08:00

I stared into the eyes of this 2 days old baby today in one of my home visiting sessions in Mantin. Her eyes were close as she cried. Tears flowing down from her eyes. As she openned her eyes, i felt something that i cannot explain. It's like a feeling, a non physical connection when i look at her. As though she's someone whom i would care and love although i have no blood ties with the baby. Is that what we call love? Love for humanity? an unconditional love? Some people might not know, but i always love babies. Ever since i was a kid. I'd make the same wish every year until i gave up when i turn 15. Every year, my wish did not come true. Although i was alone, especially when my parents are working, i lived a happy childhood. Being the only child is never a good thing. You may have all the toys in the world, but it's never fun playing alone. So please, if you want to have kids, dont just stop at your 1st one. =)

"Having a baby is one of the most wonderful things in your life, as well as the hardest thing in your life "

IMU ball

2009-04-14T00:56:00.002+08:00

IMU BALL is this sunday. Is it ok if i say that i've not done any shopping for my attire? Well, no matter what we wear on the outside, the inside is definitely more important right? Does physical appearence really matters so much when it comes to prom? And i'm being ignorant to think that being neat, clean and tidy is adequate enough. Oh well, i'll be prepared when the day comes.

“There's a big world out there. Bigger than prom, bigger than university, and it won't matter if you were the prom queen, prom king or the quarterback of the football team or the biggest nerd. Find out who you are and try not to be afraid of it.”

Rain

2009-04-12T22:06:00.003+08:00

I was looking up in the sky, all i could see was dark black clouds. I tried to locate the moon. Ah... found it. The moon was shining so brightly and a part of it was hidden by the black clouds. The bright light from the moon seems to shine down to the earth. Few minutes later, i could feel droplets of water falling from the sky, as though our mother earth is crying. Just as i turn to look up in the sky, it's raining... again.

I ran out, lifted my arms, trying to reach the sky and turns around like a foolish kid playing in the rain. I did not care if i would fall down, or caught a fever playing in the rain, all i did was to turn and turn and turn. It was cold and windy. It has been a long time since i've played in the rain. For years i guess. I think it was 10 years ago when i let myself feel the rain.

When is the last time you stop, look up in the sky and feel the rain? Or if it never really matters to you?

“I love walking in the rain, 'cause then no-one knows I'm crying.”

Nice Music Quotes

2009-04-11T19:05:00.002+08:00

Music is what feelings sound like, Music is the poetry of the air.

Music is the only means whereby we feel these emotions in their universality.

Music is the medicine of the breaking heart

Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it whole, flows from heaven to the soul.

A good composer does not imitate; he steals.

A composer knows as little as anyone else where the substance of his music comes from

You must have the score in your head, not your head in the score.

Music, I feel, must be emotional first and intellectual second

I have never thought of writing for reputation and honor. What I have in my heart must come out

The piano is a monster that screams when you touch its teeth.

If you wanted to torture me, you'd tie me down and force me to watch Paris hilton's music videos.

If your lifeguard duties were as good as your singing, a lot of people would be drowning.

There's people making babies to my music. That's nice.

Never hate a song that's sold a half million copies.

Lloyd Webber's music is everywhere but so is AIDS.

Medical and Random Quotes

2009-04-07T23:59:00.003+08:00

~One thousand Americans stop smoking every day - by dying.~

~When fate arrives the physician becomes a fool.~

~As it takes two to make a quarrel, so it takes two to make a disease, the microbe and its host.~

~The patient refused an autopsy.~

~Failure is unimportant. It takes courage to make a fool of yourself.~

~…focus on the journey, not the destination. Joy is found not in finishing an activity but in doing it.~

~To be mature means to face, and not evade, every freshcrisis that comes.~

~Most people are too busy living life to ever put life in their living…~

Funny isn't it?

2009-04-07T09:11:00.002+08:00

Isn't it funny? To see yourself laughing and chatting happily with a friend just a couple of days ago and now that very same friend becomes your worse enemy. And it is all because of an sms. It took lots of effort, time and the support of the crews to build a ship. It has been one year plus and i would say that the ship is nearly done, just some maintenance once in a while. One year to build the ship, but only 1 day to destroy it. Nobody is perfect. Everybody has thier own strength and weaknesses. No matter what, i guess people will naturally remembers all the weaknesses which is just a handful f them than a hundreds of good deeds that a friend has done. I don't understand why is it so hard to forgive another person. Isn't that what we have practised in our daily lives through our religion.

~We're born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we're not alone.~

The Star

2009-04-05T17:23:00.007+08:00

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Sunday April 5, 2009
Dr M not a fear factor, says Anwar

SUNGAI PETANI: Pakatan Rakyat says former Prime Minister Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad does not have the influence to swing votes.

Opposition leader Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim said he doubted Dr Mahathir had the power to woo fence sitters in Bukit Gantang and Bukit Selambau.

“I have instructed the Pakatan machinery not to respond to issues raised by him (Dr Mahathir). We don’t have to answer. Just leave it as what apa nama (“what’s that” — a phrase Dr Mahathir usually uses when he is trying to recall something) said,” Anwar said.

Dr Mahathir is expected to campaign for Barisan Nasional candidates in Bukit Gantang and Bukit Selambau tomorrow.

On the release of 13 ISA detainees, Anwar said he welcomed Najib’s gesture in good faith. He held a dialogue session with non-governmental organisations before heading to campaign for the Bukit Gantang parliamentary by-election.
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New PM : Najib
Back in UMNO : Dr. M

Are their efforts good enough to pull the voters back to UMNO? After all the terrible things we heard of in the party? Why can't the people who are in control of the country takes care of the country instead of playing with politics. When will they ever learn...
Don't stop the political tsunami. A change is a must to improve our country's development!

The Beginning of a new person

2009-04-05T16:12:00.004+08:00

Jot this date down, because I'm back. Still working on some changes to remove all the "melancholic" elements.

There's a reason why i'm blogging again. And it is not to complain and complain again and again. It's more of a self fulfilment.

Growing up is never easy. Especially this week, where i'm faced with a couple of what i would like to call "social" problems due to my own mistakes. It's a little embarassing when you need someone to tell you to grow up and stop acting like a kid. I would like to thank a good friend for telling me truthfully about this. About how i would make a small matter as though the world is coming to an end. About how "emo" I am all the time until it gets annoying. On how oversensitive i am as a person. This just shows that i'm only human, with weaknesses that i chose to ignore for the past 1 year or maybe more.

With mistakes like these in life, this is the time where a boy (not a man) like me thinks hard... When will i be mature? When will i grow up? If i don't start now, I'll NEVER be a man. I know that i've hurt a good friend due to my weaknesses. No matter what, i'm going to try anc change this tomorrow. And not only that, I'm going to try my very best to change who i am so that i can be a man.

There will be no posts on the finals, Joan and PY. Let the past be just the past, and i'll look forward to the future and what lies in front of my journey.

2008-11-26T23:12:00.002+08:00

i guess i would say this is the last post of this blog.

It has been a long time since i started, i guess since lower 6 until now. This blog does bring some fun as well as some sad memories in my life. i can still remember that it stirred up some controversial issues back in schools. Recently, i found out that the recent posts made me sound more immature and in a way, is demotivating me. Guess that maybe i decided to make a change in life by not blogging about it anymore. But i'm still willing to share if u ask me in person.

As for the story of my life..... how, and what happen?...well i guess it'll be stuck to me and not through the net anymore.

i hope everyone would take care always and always strive hard in life. Cause we only have 1 life...we better use it to the max :)

JianMing (Mereshell)

The Blog is officially shut down

ShutDown -------> 100%

Will it be online again? {i dont think so....}

2008-10-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

Vijay Singh: and that's the end of biliary disorders, any questions?

Barath: -a question-

Vijay Singh: Go back and read your papa patho!!! any other questions?

-_-"

2008-10-11T00:39:00.003+08:00

Dear _________,

It has been a great year for me. After getting to know you better, I began to think that i'm falling for you. I don't know if it's a good thing or not, but i just felt like letting it out here. I just hope that you might be the one that i'm waiting for, my whole life as i wish that i could be the one to light up the tunnel of your life. I may not be Brad Pitt's cousin, Albert Enstein's brother, or Michael Phelps's father but i just wish to be myself, to be as truthful as possible and hope that you'll like me for who i am and not what i'm made of. Just expressing my thoughts and feelings.

Yours Truly,
Jian Ming

2008-10-01T23:52:00.001+08:00

Pictures :) -> Thanks guys :)

2008-09-26T23:28:00.003+08:00

21%

1) 24th Sept : Went out for dinner with IMU friends in a seafood restaurant in Sri Petalling. Then after that, Justin and Nuri send the rest of us home. Well, went to my room at about 930pm. Slept a while and planned to study a while.

1.1) Then Chun Yen came in.. talk to me a while. Suddenly heard some dog barking and cat meowing. I thought Weh loong brought some pets in. Out of surprise, i saw all of them with a black forest blueberry cake ; Justin, YingC(Nuri), VeeVee, Christine, Siew Hoon, Kelvin, Weh Loong , Chun Yen, Jason, Li Ching and David. I was shocked and so happy to see them la, but i didnt tell them. Really touched and feel like crying but as a man...i shouldnt right? :)

1.2) After the ceremony, we played few games of mafia :) And They gave me a nice card. i'm so happy to read all the comments u guys had left in the card, Thanks guys for making me feel home and happy in IMU :) and thanks wehloong for the chocolate :)

2) 25th Sept: A great day to start a phase of my life, received messages from Susan, Gan and Lai Fu in msn. Smses from Phor Xiang, Yen tsen, Lilian, Why kit, Mom and Dad, Sook may, Jun Xiong, Shiau Mei, Cheah Siang, Zen, Woon Wee, Jian Ren, Peng Lun, Charlie, { Chyna, Ju Wen, Hashie, Peiyeen :) (my beloved cousins) }, Uncle Kwek (was kinda a surprise actually :P), Whei Ying and Joan :). Thanks guys for remembering :) and also to some IMU friends who wished me in UNI :) thanks ya.

2.2) Practice OSCE with Zhi Yi in the afternoon. Then at about 9pm, Kai Aun, Han Eyong, and Han Hong came to my place. Thanks for your wishes ya :)

3) 26th Sept. Mock Osce in the morning, Thank God i survive (pass :P) Came back to Klang at about 7pm. Went out to cafe at about 930pm. STPM friends celebrate again :) Thanks ya for the Pouch and the black forest blueberry cake. Get to see friends from far ends of Malaysia again :) thanks for the wishes guys : Ida, Joan, Susan, (i'm sorry i dont know ur name-> new friend), Chi Huei, Yen Ping, Hui Fang, KP, YueMing, Jun Xiong, Chay Lun, Kuan Chee Hao, Cheah Siang, Win Hong, Sid Guan and Keng Hoo. Thanks. And thanks ya Sook May, for posting a card to my house :P. hehe so cute la the card with a small letter in it. THANKS

THANKS EVERYONE FOR MAKING MY DAY A HAPPY ONE !!!!

Thats all
Blog Updated
Pictures later :)

take care

2008-09-23T17:13:00.002+08:00

Updates..

forget to add a coule of stuff in the past... so i'm adding now

1) Sept 11- went out for dinner and movie with DA gang :) hehe hmm...watch mummy3. i slept in the early part of the movie, and laughing at the funny scenes (which is supposed to be serious) with AuntieNuri

2) Sept 17- went out for movie, then dinner. With DA gang again...including few more friends :). Money not enough 2, a must watch movie. If u wanna date a girl for the movie, this is the movie, and guys, dont forget to bring tissue papers :) its a SURE cry movie for girls :P

2.2) then go for all u can eat steamboat :) rm20LA but damn nice :) Never eaat until so full during steamboat b4 LOL. after that...we went to liching's house. play mafia, play piano :P, play taboo... and justin took us back, reach Vista at 2am i think

2.3) then adam and gang in my place, play dota with george one on one.. play until 4am..sleep

3) mock osce coming on friday...better get prepared

Short Update again...:)

2008-09-22T18:46:00.002+08:00

Updates

1) It's Sept 22 today, gosh...time flies so fast.. Starting GI system today
2) Just finish with my haemato system...haih..need to study for exams in November
3) Looking forward for raya break, meet friends and enjoy life :)
4) New song in my mind...planning to finish it by this wednesday. i wonder what does the feelin signifies...
5)Happy Birthday Kai AUn :) haha... great friend deserve a great day :)
6)Nothing much in the past.. future is not here yet so i dunno... but the present is a gift..
7) Itchy and pain from surgical scar... i think it'll last for one week.
{just removed a tumor last saturday}

Blog Updated
I'm out.

David's song

2008-08-23T23:27:00.001+08:00

As i promise as well.. David's song.

Blue Rhapsody

2008-08-16T12:24:00.005+08:00

As i promised, the video

Lyrics

缘逝

买了你最爱的香槟,你无笑容,
不习惯你那陌生的冷淡,
为什么那幅像天使般的笑容不笑,
亲爱的你是怎么了啊,

原来我给的一切不是你想要得到的,
我们的交集点是不是缠了太久了啊,
解开时只剩下遍体鳞伤和折磨,
无言以对爱情慢慢地消失,

如果这爱不再漫舞,
虚伪的拥抱只是零度,
我也知道天亮后你不回头缘分结束从此不见,
别这样你也知道爱情是圆的,
你不可把它分一半缺失的那一半我应该找谁补上,
(我只想找你补上),

Thanks Christine for the lyrics, Thanks Wen yi for singing it :)

AND DONT LAUGH!!!!!

2008-08-10T18:51:00.009+08:00

IT is... a song.

LOL... I, Jian Ming, a banana , no basic education in mandarin joined IMU chinese singing competition. LOL How you doing? :P

Haha... i cant even read, write of listen. And still..i'm there. There's 3 catogories in this competition, Singing solo, Singing in a group, and composing category.

Actually i took part for fun ni, cause they have a piano composing category ma. So, just try try lo... cause i'm never active in any activities in my uni.

Haha..as u know, i don't know mandarin, So how the hell i can still join?!??!??? Thanks to Yiau Hong, i found a professional lyricist who is an expert in writing poems as well..Somemore my batch mate. She's Christine wong. She wrote such great lyrics to the song. Oh yea..i didnt say which song? hehe... i chose "Blu Rhapsody" as the song. I think only very few of my friends heard the song, cause it was made very long time ago since form 6 and i havent really "furnished" it :P I'll upload the piano song. Anyway, Christine decided to help me with the lyrics.

Now i need to look for a singer. From Yiau Hong again, :) i found Wen Yi, a very nice bubbly girl who was in the solo category. She decided to sing the song... SO YAY for me.., cause can join d :P

Was kinda panic..cause can't look for singer initially . hehe

Then train for about 2-3 days before the competition on the 7th august (thursday)

hehe... the funny part is that.. there's only 3 contestants in the composing category, 1st one is Marshall, a nursing student who made a song to dedicate it to the myanmar children who are suffering. Talented right? wait till u hear the second one... David, my batchmate, close friend of mine... Very very talented in music, he wrote the lyrics, the melody and he's playing the piano while singing. How cool is that??? and he dedicate his song to his grandpa... very very sad and touching song indeed.

Nway... that night i'm very happy, because Christine willing to sacrifice her time to write the lyrics, and Wen Yi who's willing to sing the song and they all make my dreams come true, which is to see my song comes to live. And it did. I'm very very happy with that.

The results???

It's not important to me cause i'm just happy that it's alive. i wont talk about it here. But what i can say is that everyone did their best and it was a great performance by everyone :)

Anyway, i wanna thank Christine and Wen Yi, for believing in the song. Yiau Hong, thanks so much for helping me..cause initially i didnt want to join the competition. David, thanks for the piano skills u've taught me, Chun yen, thanks for coming for the practise to help me out and thanks to all of u guys who came on that day to watch us play and sing :) This is a great experience that i'll never forget... thank you so much

I'll update the pictures, lyrics and the videos later k :)

Christine with Charlie (my batchmate, in the finals of the solo category)

Christine, Wen yi, and Mereshell :)

David with Mereshell

Wen yi singing. (She's so pretty right?) :P

(to be continued :) )

2008-08-06T08:17:00.003+08:00

b*Updates* of my life

15 days till my 1st Exams in Sem 3. 1 more days before i can live my long lost dream for 4 minutes. I waited my whole life for somebody to bring IT to live. IT is going to be for real. Winning is not the main priority, but i would be happy just to share my emotions through IT with my friends and other people. IT would be legendary :P

Tc ppl....

Question: What is IT? :)

2008-07-17T16:05:00.001+08:00

Holidays ending soon :(

Anyway... today's post is about the debate.

Honestly i think both of them did very well. Anwar vs Menteri kewangan
but i feel that anwar would have won if this is a competition. So what did u guys think?

Rickk's Song - in UCSI

2008-07-09T00:08:00.001+08:00

Quite owning... but surprisingly... he looks a lot like me... just that his piano skills are much much better than yours truly :P

2008-07-04T18:36:00.003+08:00

CHINA EARTHQUAKE STRIPS

Hello. This is Coco Wang. As you know the breaking news of 5.12 Earthquake in China, almost all the TV channels in China are broadcasting 24 hours non-stop of every development and stories of all the rescue operations in all damaged locations.

I don't know how much information the BBC or any UK media received from us, I imagine the UK audiences were presented with the major developments of the incident, but you are probably unaware of many important and inside details which are only known to people inside China.

The amount of incredibly moving stories of victims, rescuers, and volunteers is simply shocking at the moment. I have been collecting newspapers of all the stories, and telling them in the form of comic strips. I hope these stories could show the UK readers the love, warmth and courage of the Chinese people, also the sad and cruel reality of the horrible 5.12 Earthquake.

I am back home in Beijing now. Thousands of heart-breaking stories are happening 24 hours non-stop everyday, some are so sad that you can hardly bear, some are incredibly moving that you just can't stop crying... I wanted to go to the front to help with all those people, some of my friends have already gone there, but I heard that the traffic needed to be kept totally clear for rescue transportation at the moment, people like me without knowledge of first-aid and experience of rescue operations going there now would cause choas and trouble... but I can't just sit at home and do nothing, I have been crying my eyes out in the past three days, I have never felt more proud of my country and people... their love, courage and kindness rock me to my core! I have decided to tell these touching stories by drawing comics. I am going to send you comic strips almost everyday from now on, I hope you could know something about the earthquake in China, although you don't have to do anything, but I hope you could feel our love and hope.

Thank you all so much.

Coco Wang

2008-07-03T09:45:00.011+08:00

COP

Monday till Wednesday(30th june-2nd july)

Our group(Kai Aun, Keng, Woon Wee, Han Hyong, Zen and JM) went to SMK Putrajaya Presint 11 in the Kanak kanak khas department. The students were made up of down syndrome, autism, hypoactive and mentally retarded students. Kinda sad thinking how they survive in this tough world. I really salute their parents and teachers for training them to be dicipline.

What we basically do is to assist the teachers for 3 days.
We had plan to do 3 activities during our COP visit :

1) Stamping Art using potatoes, leaves and lady fingers. 4 classes are fortunate to enjoy this activity :P

2) Pictionary, where we draw and let them guess what we are drawing. The person who guess correctly wins pen and sweets

3) Play football with the school team. LOL (Noobers vs M.disabled) and the score is 4-4

4) The main event: Pandora box. When the music plays, the box will be passed among students and then when it stops, the person have to take a paper. It may be a question, or a gift.

NOW>>>let the pictures do the talking

Presint 1

Take care ppl

2008-06-25T17:44:00.003+08:00

Between the J's and the M's

Yea. What is between the J's and M's. It's a story i would like to dedicate and hopefully it'll help a friend of mine, JM to be a better person.

Ever since the Semester breaks, this fellow uni friend of mine has been the talk of the town. A story about how peculiar, changes that occur to JM. JM to me was a "ok" friend, however from an reknown sources, I've found out that he changed quite a bit. He's well known for weird moves, like greetings, the way he converse with people, it just seems so different from normal people. JM's coursemate used to tell me stories about how annoying he is. I guess, because of his behaviour, friends start to ditch him, by not calling him out for mamaks', and movies. I guess he must have feel insulted and sad. I guess that JM is not aware that he might have hurt other people's feelings through his annoying antics and others. Even friends are not making fun of him in outings.

I hope that you will see this and change for the better. No matter what you have done, i'll always hope and accept positive changes in you.

2008-06-21T23:42:00.003+08:00

No updates la... lol nothing to write actually.
But at least i'm trying my very best to meet friends and family.

The Question is : Have you?

Visit his blog to find out about my day today -> :p http://www.eddyngwk.blogspot.com/

2008-06-05T01:01:00.012+08:00

Money = Water?

LETS BE REASONABLE SHALL WE...

Everyday i eat 3 times a day. One meal cost about RM5. So one day is about RM15. Therefore 30 days is about (calculator ON) = RM 450

Erm Electric Bills = RM80

Water bills = (RM10) (cause i'm in Selangor?)

Car maintenance = RM300

Petrol: Pam Twice a month (RM2.70 one litre, pam 50 liters, at least twice per month) = RM270

Car Loan = RM400

House rent = RM500

Phone bill (Telekon) = RM20 (Everyone uses Handphone nowadays right?)

Phone card for handphone = RM30 (for one month)

Miscellaneous: RM100 (shampoo, rice, sauce, toilet paper)

This Internet bills = RM88

It's about RM2248 so far. And i'm not exaggerating in any way. No even including the income tax.

And this is just for me alone!!! Not even thinking about family, dating with girlfriend, entertainment like going for movies, eat at Chillis, TGIF, even Pizza Hut, there goes my Astro also. And I'm not too sure if we need insurance or not... That is not even including the cost of my course. (-_-")

RM2248..

How much is RM1 worth these days?

2008-06-04T23:23:00.004+08:00

IS PETROL = WATER ?

What the hell is happening la... Price of petrol went up again.. PHUCK YOU!!!!! WHY?!?!??!

WHAT DA HELL is wrong with your brains ppl?? U can send some guy to the moon..u can't help subsidise for PETROL ??? WTPHUCK!!!!

DAMN tulan... YES I AM TULAN.. WITH YOU.

Petrol naik, electric naik, makanan NAIK ( u say only didnt naik, diesel also naik wat), ALL ALSO NAIK LA!!!!

I think Mid class PPL like ME also goin to suffer d la... HOW NOW?

what you want me to do now? Beg for money to pay for petrol? HOW LA NOW!!!

Harga minyak sepanjang zaman.. (dalam masa 16 tahun - sejak 1990)sebelum 90 - RM 0.89tahun 1990 - RM 1.10 (kenaikan RM 0.21)01/10/2000 - RM 1.20 (kenaikan RM 0.10 )20/10/2001 - RM 1.30 (kenaikan RM 0.10)01/05/2002 - RM 1.32 (kenaikan RM 0.02)31/10/2002 - RM 1.33 (kenaikan RM 0.01)01/03/2003 - RM 1.35 (kenaikan RM 0.02)01/05/2004 - RM 1.37 (kenaikan RM 0.02)01/10/2004 - RM 1.42 (kenaikan RM 0.05)05/05/2005 - RM 1.52 (kenaikan RM 0.10)31/07/2005 - RM 1.62 (kenaikan RM 0.10)28/02/2006 - RM 1.92 (kenaikan RM 0.30)01-31/05-12/2008 - RM 2.52 (kenaikan RM 0.60)

and now = RM2.70 (kenaikan RM0.78)

2008-06-02T22:23:00.003+08:00

Turning point of life?
At this point of my life, i really feel happy. Not because its holidays, but because i'm trying to achieve something, which is to try and meet and reach as many people as possible. I'm just happy seeing old friends again after a long time. Meeting people just makes me feel happy. Meeting with my cousins after one month of nerding. Going out for gatherings, mamakings, going to the malls, meet at friend's crib chatting. It's just great :)

Talking about how much changes, old funny memories in school, the same inside joke in every gathering, laughing, joking. A simple game of basketball like yesterday made me very happy. ( Not because i won la - i didnt contribute much also) but the fun and stupid things we do that just make us laugh non stop while playing. That is to me the best basketball game i've ever played. No pressure, just fun fun fun.

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As i was walking along the road today, i've been thinking about the time i walk on the very same road during the spm break, time changes everything. I felt so old. lol. But i always think a lot while i was walking. Things changes, i may not know if it's right for me to walk on this road. But i feel right. I used to be so immature the last time i walk. I used to be so childish, but now i always hope that that character will come back to me. Being a young adult, we tend to have more responsibillities, i feel...and i don't know if i can take it. I'm just not sure. Kinda afraid to be an adult. Looking at my parents, they seems so busy everyday. Will I be able to go through this step of my journey in life?

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Life goes on... no matter what. Life always goes on. With every breath. Dont care if u started walking, top student in class, sing in front of the crowd, murder someone, fail in exams, lost a loved one, or just looking at the road, life will always go on... Life goes on for those who are dead also, cause their life will continue to live in other people's memories...

2008-05-29T22:54:00.015+08:00

Since i'm free now.

MOVIE REVIEW

Ironman ( Orang besi)

AMAbeZING!!!

Kinda like an introduction to a new hero,
Tony Stark. A story on how a guy strive in the verge of dying to become a better person in life. The superhero suit is super cool. I never expect ironman to look so cool. Shining Red and yellow. Kudos Stan Lee for choosing such nice colours to be paired with. This is super sexy Ironman. Dont you think he looks sexay!!??

Robert Downey Jr, He suits and resembles Tony Stark about 90%. He did very well in potraying himself as the man behind the steel (not superman = he's the man of steel) , Ironman. A man with Bruce Wayne's wealth and baddass attitude like james bond, maybe worse...

Womaniser, rich, famous, carefree, irresponsible, BUT intelligent in weapons of mass destruction

"MEET THE JERICHO"

Cool CGI especially when he's flying with the air force planes. No JOKE... It's like 2 chicken vs an eagle flying. And the ending scene where Nick Fury comes in... signifies the Avengers Project. A great sequel coming out soon.

FISHMONGER

ORANG BESI

I guess the only CONS of the movie is The badass is the movie is not so badass after all. I meant the IRONMONGER... the name sux shit wei. Why Ironmonger? sounds like fishmonger to me. Ironmonger throwing some fish at Ironman...what a show! And he doesnt looks convincing enough. Like a huge pile of metal unlike Ironman... Why cant they paint the ironmonger into something cool like opposing to ironman.

IronMonger's built :)

FACE OFF : FISHmonger in action!!!

Overall, it's a great movie. In fact one of the best ever made after Transformers and Spiderman.

I RECOMMEND :)

(8/10)

2008-05-29T13:00:00.000+08:00

Song time :)

2008-05-28T20:49:00.007+08:00

I barely made it...

One more step and i taste the broth from hell. Finally, can enjoy holidays although my results is nothing to be proud of.

This post is not about me. It's actually for my friends. I feel really sad when i saw some who cried. I could feel the anger, frustration, the loneliness after lots and lots of hardwork for one year and there goes.

If i would be in their shoes, I would cry too. I would be so lost like i'm in a dark cave without a light . never getting out of it. How i wish there would be light guiding me out.

So people. Life is not always what it seems. To Mr.Eddy, there's heaven in life, Mr.Chaos would think that life sux at times. But thats life. That's why we are in it. We keep on fighting no matter what the result is. We struggle for survival and to those who suffer for now, i really pray and hope that you can regain that strength and lead your way back to the top. The tunnel may be dark, but i know GOD have special ways to lead us even in dark tunnel.

i know i'm lucky enough to just scrape through this time. i felt sorry for some and i hope that we will all stay strong and try overcome things in life.

I'm not afraid to declare here that i once fail CPR.

CPR!!! WTF

I'm the only one who fail CPR in my batch. AND I'M DAMN PROUD OF IT. (haih...people may think i suck to the max)

WHY? u ask me?

because it makes me feel stupid, humilated and lonely. But after that, it thought me to be more mature, to be calm and to accept defeat. By accepting defeat, i regain my composure and try my best in the resit test for CPR. and yes...finally i passed it.

EOS may be tough, according to seniors, one of the toughest in phase 1 exams, but i know that if we have the determination to continue, to strive... nothing can stop us. Not even pure luck can stop hardwork.

For those who survived, congrats man.. we'll see each other in Sem 3. For those who didnt, STAY STRONG and KEEP GOIN. DONT EVER STOP. If need anything, just msg me. I will be there if possible.

I'll end this emo post with a picture remembering us why we are here.

Oops..not this picture.. this one -:>

Remember...the passion for people is why we are here.

2008-05-27T21:46:00.003+08:00

Hello

For the 1st one week of holidays, i learn to play -:>

DOTA :P

In my opinion, dota is a game for a group of friends to enjoy killing one another for the.. fun of it?

Yea...

Some pro and cons of dota...

PRO - Fun, enjoyable with friends, violence without getting hurt, lame ( Exaggerated powers)(OWning sounds), great way to start a topic of discussion with new guy friends

CON - Addictive, there goes my studying time, mentally unstable with dota, choosing dota over friend's gathering, sacrificing oneself by not eating or drinking and just going for war with monsters, waste money, sleepless nights, out of the world experience which leads to the asylum

I'm currently into

Guess who is he? :P

I'll end today's post with a shining man in shining armour with a shining shield shining the way.

2008-05-22T12:18:00.002+08:00

Exams over -> hopefully can holiday for 2 months. (Hopefully)

lol

anyway...

Call me out :)

2008-04-17T22:22:00.002+08:00

My blog die d....

i'm back...
nothing much...
everyday mug mug mug....
no life ahead :p....
one more month exams.....
then 2 months holidays....
then less than one month exam again...
although...with the coming exams and all....
i feel glad that i'm actually here....
happy also got, sad moments also got...
but what i'm DAMN sure is...
i'm alive la..
lol
erm...really hope to make another song... hopefully a sad one and hopefully it works...
its really difficult to make songs these days, not only the mugging, the air topicking the pbling or wat...
but there's no inspiration, no more...
there used to be someone..who would make me inspire...but now it seems gone...
maybe one of my sad moments, hopefully will still come out with one....
eventhough i'm a student in this uni now, that will nvr stop me from making new things...
cause it's my 1st passion...and my very first of all....
anyway.... few more months....
i'm gonna be 21....
i'm very afraid of this age....
to be honest i dont like the sound of it....
does that mean i have to leave the child inside of me for the adult to sets in???
more and more responsibilities will come slowly.....
how i wish i can go back to the time when i'm still small....
where i can appreciate my parents even more....
not to make them angry...
not to be naughty....
but now cannot d...
grown up now...
this age also ppl can marry d...
but i not only cannot lol....
dont plan to find one act...(for now la)
lol
its not that i'm choosy la...
but all i want for my companion is very simple....
i just want to be comfortable being with a person where i can share everything...
and i wish to tell my feelings through another way...not through communication :)
but oh well...
nvr really find anyone comfortable for me to share everything...
life is like that la....
uncertain...yet we always want to find out what happen next...
anyhow.... i live not to study ni la...not to just be a doctor....
is to make my life meningful...
a life where i can be pround of at my death bed....
i can say that i've done this and that...
and i hope that i wont have regrets at that time...
not to say i'm gonna die now la....
lol...
hope this doesnt bore u...
just wanna say say a bit la...
haih...wondering how my other friends in so many different parts of the world are doing now....
wishing them all the best in life...
no matter wat happens...
dont give up la....
nvr stop runnning....
as we run through our lives....
sian la....
anyone have anything to tell me about ur life...
comment here la....
that is if u read this post la...
haih :P
nvm la...
at least i've updated ma....
oh well...
tell me ur life...and wat is going on...
want to tie back the strings....
strings of friendship
not in sight doesnt mean not in mind ma...
will always remember the memories we share....
under one sky...
one destiny....
to be better....
oh well...
this is a crappy blog ma...
crappy post...
surprisingly quite long for me....
drop by la anyway...
dont be shy...
i wont bite :P
okla...
today a bit slacky...
maybe tmr will be a better day
to mug... :P
seriously thats my life now la....
i wanna watch movie i wanna go holidays....
but...
i will still go la...
must see when....
okla...
tata ppl...
hope to hear from u guys soon...
and take care...

~mereshell~ is back for 20 minutes -> and back to mugging

2008-03-07T00:44:00.001+08:00

hey..i know i know... no update. I"m giving u a report that i'm supposed to submit but i didnt :)

It’s the 2nd day of my nursing week (6th March) where I’m posted to Hospital Tuanku Jaafar in Seremban. The bus departed from IMU Bukit Jalil at 6.15am and reach IMU Clinical School in Seremban at about 7.10am. We gathered at the Conference Room for Briefing by Matron Kalsom. The briefing starts at about 8.20am. The matron explained to us about the objectives of this nursing week and the dangers of sharp objects like injection which is to avoid being pricked accidentally. She also explained about the importance of passing report and how to arrange the bed. After the briefing we are divided into 14 groups as the sister in charge of my group is Sister Normah. Sister took us for a tour around the hospital after a short chat with our group.

Our 1st stop is the A&E department. She explained to us about triage which is the help required for emergency depending on the severity of the case. E.g.: red is for emergency and so on. Next is the Observational room where it is a place for patients who are waiting for black investigations. In this room, vital signs are measured every hour and tapid sponge is done to patients with high fever. Blood bank is the next pit stop of the tour. The sister in charge explained what happen after a person donates blood. Most of the blood which is kept in the hospital is blood O- . The screening for blood is conducted in Pusat Darah Negara and will be sent back to the hospital for storage which last about a month. I went to the MRI room as well and was amazed by the technology of MRI. Computer is used to see X-rays of film showing the cross section of the backbone (Patient’s). Next is the occupational therapy room where hand , the upper limb of the nervous system and the cognitive behavior is being assessed through simple tasks like picking up stuffs, dressing and so on. Splinting is also available to correct deformities. After that we moved on to the CAPD department (Continious Amplitary Peritoneal Dialysis) where a machine using water to clean the kidney. Next is the haemodialysis where kidney patients clean their blood. Before using the machine to clean their blood, an operation is done 1st to join the artery and vein on the forearm ( joining the fistula) so that the venous is now linked to the artery. Then, the machine helps to filter the blood in the venous and the artery as well. Other places are the Pathology lab, Physiotherapy lab ( where patients especially stroke patients exercise to regain their posture and also the movement of their injured area like hands, legs, etc.) and Pharmacy counter. Then we proceed to the mortuary. Unfortunately there’s no dead body inside so there goes the fun. Anyway the officer working in the mortuary explained about how the body is kept in the freezer and the equipments used in autopsy. There was also a weight bin where the fresh red organs are measured to note the changes in size compare to the normal size. After leaving that eerie place, we moved on to the O&G department. I saw some patients do blood test and also checking the pulse of the baby. Next the diagnosis rooms which consist of stress test room, echocardiogram room (to observe and measure the heart beating) and then its 10.20am. Time for Break ( tea break)

End of Part 1

2008-01-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

CHUA SOI LEK - the minister behind the curtains of the dvd sex video !!!!

HE admits that the actor in the video was him. His wife forgive him, but will MALAYSIANS forgive him???

He represents the health sector in Malaysia. He represents the MCA members. As a chinese, i'm so dissapointed and find it amusing....

And wat the bloody hell... HIM??? out of all the ministers....is HIM???

but nvm la.. guess our PMM wil forgive him. After all he said that man are born to love many women ...like his sis in law?

Wonder how they managed to do the video... after all he can get free supplies of viagra anytime he wants. LOL what the bloody hell

SONG

2007-12-27T11:06:00.001+08:00

2007-12-27T10:56:00.000+08:00

PENANG

The place for opportunities. The place where i'm proud of. The place where one can gain 5 kg in 2 days.

Nway... I'm here. means i'm not in klang. Means i cant go for tmr's ying c birthday celebrations. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING C.

This is the 2nd day i'm in penang. Ate Penang asam laksa yesterday. Taste so good.

Will be back to klang on saturday. i guess its too late to get together. SO for those who are goung back to UNI, i wanna say TAKE CARE GUYS :)

i'll have to go back too...on the 31 dec. lol.. The Suffering begins again...
A busy life, sleepless nights, blue black eyes,lectures,reports, which is in short... a crappy life

2007-12-27T10:48:00.000+08:00

I"M BACK

It has been a while since i've really blog. BUT...

Here i am.
Thanks to everyone for all your support.

I promise better posts in the coming future.

K take care guys :)

Merry XMAS Everyone!!!

2007-12-21T23:29:00.001+08:00

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2007-11-03T01:14:00.000+08:00

dead blog....blog die d...

nway...yes la...i'm lazy to update blog la. U know that i dont write that much all say lots of things ma

as long as i'm fine healthy and ok...i think ok d kua... no need to write so much la...

err test coming lo on the 19th of dec..one more month to prepare... not sure whether can or not.. just trying my best all the time. My life there is quite nice la...meets lots of people from many places, many attitudes... some i dont like, some ok, some i cant remember (sorry lo), some i don't know... but hopefully..can get to know more people lo.

Other than lectures everyday...just hanging around... in the cafeteria chit chatting, in the library...to read lecture notes, books, read newspaper, go to the net...

clubs le..so far join 2.. but only one of it is active..the other seems to be sleeping(music and performance club) maybe cause they only pay attention to the band... leave out the other underdogs with no band :( nvm la...

and...registered for station master for the next orientation. with qh, kelvin, cherlyn, kalai and alicia..wonder who's alicia :P hope it's gonna be fun

the most prominient thing i can remember for now is being a simulated patient for sem 3 friends who wanna practise for CSU. I really volunteered because wanna learn more about this technical clinical skills..like taking pulse rate on other places...looking for the apex of the heart, percussions. was helping shok yin and adeline. gd luck for csu :)

tell u...lectures time damn sian. lecturers talking... i'm half asleep everytime...although pretend to be attentive...act tipu one ... haih, nway..dont feeeel like goin campus friends camp la... not because damn sian..i think its fun la..but 3 days wor, somemore rm100+++ tim!!!

so yeala..thats all about my life here. 1.29am and still online...guilty? nah...not guilty at all... dont care la..some ppl say must study all the time, some even say must study 10 hours to pass...was thinking about it initially...but finally decide that... 10 hours is stupid la... cant concentrate also most of the time...i think better use the time to sleep... :P

itu sahaja untuk kalian...sehingga kita bertemu lagi dalam warkah lain. salam hormat salam sejahtera

2007-09-25T14:24:00.000+08:00

how i feel...

erm...still busy, studying -_-" , still tired, but i'm just happy. Happy to get wishes from friends who are miles from here. Thankful to have friends (and family also) who still remember and thankful to have many good friends around me. i appreciate that. i wouldnt say today is a great day, but i guess it can be a start. Do i feel like a man? Nah... eventhough i'm 20, i feel a little bit mature but i know i have lots and lots, and lots more to learn, so yea...20. categorised into the young adult category d. Cant act like a child anymore. oh well, need to go now... was typing from the Elab

ta..

2007-09-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

It has been a while.....

Wonderful things happen to me. I'm happy to be in it. It all started with the orientation week... get to know lots of people...different backgrounds, different characters, same aim... and then comes the lectures, lectures, lectures.... 2 hours a day 5 days a week...played bsktbll for my batch..."substitute playa" ni...but nvm la...at least i get to play for a total of 6 minutes in 2 games....and last saturday we went to charity homes...to instill caring and love towards people.
So yea... and currently busy with biochem..lecturer finish biochem in 2 weeks...and the lippincott book is like 400pages...so much more to read...but lecturers are going into anatomy already...wth....more and more reading to do...wasting time in the internet now??!!!...wth...guilty :'(

chau... sleepy (lol)

tc people, gd nite -> -currently listening to wait for you by elliott yamin-

2007-08-29T02:14:00.000+08:00

2007-08-21T09:59:00.000+08:00

No more boring post... erm let the photos do the talking on my 1st day...

Got some photos from some reliable sources...

Not bragging about it, just dont want to make my blog looks boring

Oaths, oaths, oaths,.... -_-" " i swear i will not kill another animal, i swear i will not...."

wth... havent even graduated already must take photo... Not even studying yet... -_-"

got to prepare my english test today. chau

2007-08-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

A New Life Begins Tomorrow

-> the title....

2007-07-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

I don't mean to be bias in any way but can you tell me how many promises did he make?

2007-06-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

PATHS DIVERGED

THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE RING HAS BEEN BROKEN, ALL OF US GOING TO DIFFERENT PATHS... SO MANY PPL LEAVING.. I'LL START WITH ->

CHUNG VI , KUEI LONG, WEI KUO, PENG LUN, WHY KIT, CHIN SENG - DONT FORGET TO BE A GOOD ENGINEER AH... DONT MAKE MALAYSIAN CARS THAT IS EASILY "BOCOR" ONE LO,

KEAN BENG, CHORSENG - MALAYSIA PETROLEUM LIES IN UR SKILLS IN OBTAINING THEM,

KOKPENG, SHI LEE, HUA CHYE, JOAN, WIN HONG, ZHI JUN, CHIA CHEE- (THIS IS FOR KP)-> {WHEN U ANNOUNCE UR NEW MICROSOFT KP WHICH IS UPGRADED FROM MICROSOFT XP... DONT FORGET TO GIVE ME ONE FREE CD LA,} HELP UPGRADE OUR MULTIMEDIA SUPER CORRIDOR YEA ?

YUEMING, CHAY LUN , CHAYXIANG, YOKE LENG - MY TEETH DAMN BLACK DUNNO WHY, CAN CHECK FOR ME FOR FREE RIGHT? AND BAD BREATH ALSO

JUNXIONG, SHOBAN, JOYE, CARRINE, PUISAN, AUNTIE LOO, KANG YAN - HUMAN LIVES LIE IN YOUR HANDS, DONT LEAVE UR SCAPEL INSIDE THE PATIENT'S BODY AFTER THE OPERATION ... IF NOT SUSAH LA PATIENT SUE NANTI :P

KUAN CHEE HAO, ZHI HAN,ELAINE, CHIA YEN, CHI HUEI - NEXT TIME RECOMMEND ME NICE FOOD LA... :P

PHOR XIANG - FAMOUS CELEBRITY IN HIGH SCHOOL, LOL . MALAYSIA'S ECONOMY CALCULATIONS LIE IN UR HANDS... DONT MISCALCULATE LO.. MAINTAIN OUR PRICE OF THE RINGGIT MALAYSIA

SHEN YEE AUN - MY PENGAJIAN AM TUITION MATE, REALLY HOPE THAT U WILL JOIN POLITICS TO PROTECT US, THE ENDANGERED SPECIES K

YAP CHEE HAO - MALAYSIA BUILDING..MAKE SURE NO MORE BOCOR K :0)

JENNIE, IDA, KHENG LOO - MAKE MALAYSIA PROUD OF THE RESEARCH YOU HAVE DONE K :)

SUSAN- RECOMMEND SOME DIETING TIPS FOR ME OK? FAT D LE

SOOKMAY - BE A GREAT MATHEMATICIAN K :)

SHIAU MEI, SUTING,RENNU,JAMES CHAN - WEI...DONT MAKE ANYMORE ESTACY PILLS LA... DONT ANGRY LA...KIDDING NI

HOCK GUAN (MASKOT), JIN LI, JING JYE, AROMA - GOOD LUCK IN UR FIELD :) BY THE WAY, CAN HELP ME CHECK MY URINE SAMPLE :P- COME ON..KIDDING NI

SIEW YEE - LOL..DUNNO WAT TO SAY LE... JUST HELP IMPROVE OUT KLANG RIVER... IF I MISINTERPRETE UR JOB, I'M SORRY LE

FOONG, ERIC GIDEON - WEI... NEXT TIME I CAN ASK U TO DO MY HOUSE LIGHTING RIGHT? 3E BABY :P

YIK SHEN, JEN LIM, MING YANG - LOL WEI...WHEN BECOME CEO OF UR COMPANY, DONT FORGET TO CHIA ME MAKAN TAITONG LO

SHEN HUI- BE THE NEXT KARPQAL SINGH LO, CAN EVEN HELP US IF JOIN POLITICS :P

YONG HAN - I HAVE NO DOUBTS THAT U WILL BE A GREAT ACTUARIST... MATHS SO KENG :)

HEAN HUI , JIA YUAN - TEACH ME STATISTICS :P

AND TO THE REST THAT I DID NOT MENTION, NOT THAT I FORGOT WHO ARE U, I;M JUST UNSURE OF THE COURSE U GOT K.. I WISH ALL OF U THE BEST!!! REALLY !!!!

GOOD LUCK IN LIFE. HOPE OUR PATH CROSS ONE ANOTHER. HOPE TO SEE U AGAIN, HAVE A SAFE JOURNEY TO YOUR UNI'S AND ENJOY THE LIFE OF A TERTIARY EDUCATION STUDENT

TAKE CARE

2007-06-20T13:04:00.000+08:00

CONT : the story of the crossroads.

There I stand... watching the roads carefully. I know i'm not gonna take the 3rd road which is the road to the right. Now it's down to 2 roads. the safer road or the risky road.

The safer road is cleaner and greener. But it does not promise me anything. The risky road is full of obstacles, risky adventure which lies ahead. And its not an easy road.

For the road of success, for the road of a bright future, i am willing...

Willing to go far, willing to die for my dream, willing to go to my own inisfree than to take the path chosen by others.

I'll take the risky one... the challenge is upon me now. It'll nvr be easy but i know if i have the determination, it'll be a better life for me.

i might be a nobody now, some might think that i'm goin to be a nobody forever, but u guys can wait, i'm going to bounce back, i'll be a somebody one day... and when the time comes, eat your own words people.

2007-06-19T09:09:00.000+08:00

GOV CHOOSE TO GIVE ME BIOLOGICAL SCIENCE

so wat now... next Mano?

damn la... i know gov cant satisfy everyone but... just look at the ratio of matric students compared to stpm...its too unfair. they really cause us emotional feelings... haih..

2007-06-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

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Character Judgement

2007-06-08T11:57:00.000+08:00

Imagine you are walking, walking along a road, Tar road. Your surroundings are just grass. the moon shines brightly towards you, glittering stars in the sky. As you are walking, u come to a crossroad...

There are 3 paths u can choose. All the paths you choose will lead u home. The 1st path on your left leads you to a boring but a safe path back to your home. The 2nd road at your north leads you to a shorter but a more adventurous, dangerous and risky road back to your home. You may be gone any minute if you are not careful. The 3rd one on your right will lead you to a long long winding which u may be tired and need a long long journey before u can reach home. It may affect your fatigue and without full determination, no one can survive the 3rd road.

So, what road will you choose?

2007-05-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

Which Road To Take

The roads area very clear now, which road i should take?

1) The Road to NUS for bachelor of science
2) The Road to UCSI for medicine
3) The Road to IMU for medicine
4) The Road to Government University for GOD knows what course
5) To drop everything about studying and play piano in Sunway Pyramid
6) To continue working for Kumon

What should i do...

2007-05-01T19:03:00.001+08:00

I wish, that i can just sleep... not for one hour, not for 8 hours, but to sleep forever. To just close my eyes, pitch black. In tranquility, calm, peace. No worries, no suffering, no sadness, no pain.the comfort of sleeping, lying down, not thinking about the past, present or future. Close our eyes.. and just dream... dream of wat we would like... any dream, some poeple like to fly... some like to be rich, but me... i just dream.. dream of a world.. a world without me. No more regrets, no more family, no more friends, no more people to worry and care about. Dream that if i was not born, nothing would happen..nothing at all...nothing would take place, no war, no poverty, no aids , no disease, nothing... just a world of emptiness in the dark. i wish...i wish....