I felt like someone slapped me really hard on my face. It's so painful, it hurts mentally. I don't know why i tried so hard to change myself so that other people will appreciate. I was wrong. I'm so sad to find out that people dont appreciate. My existence is there physically in a form of numbers instead of a person. And i tried so hard to be a good friend, yet things still happen. People whom i thought i'm close with are actually not. I am only needed when i'm useful. When i'm suffering in pain, i felt alone in the dark. People tend to appreciate others who are fun, outgoing and funny rather than me. I felt stupid trying to think how i should change myself, so that i'll be appreciated. But i'm only losing myself and lose many other things in life.
I really don't know if it's my personality which is changing, other peoples' personalities are changing, or i never really knew them until now.
So, Thank you so much for teaching me that life is not a bed of roses. Happy people click along, sad people walk alone. If u are sad, u are not fun, therefore it's not fun if u are there.
THANK YOU for the lesson u guys have thought me.
And because of this, i've learnt not to trust anyone anymore.
